Tuesday, August 24, 2010

School DAZE ~ Go Away!

Say it isn't so, my camera has not seen the light of day in 2 weeks. Life has taken us by surprise and we are doing good to keep our heads above water at this point. Seriously, my daily prayers are filled with several request a day asking my sweet Jesus to let us make it one day at a time.

I am not sure ANYONE, including educators realize the work school administrators do to get the year off to a great start and create a school that welcomes children with open arms. I am here to tell you that I am physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted and we are only 2 days in with 185 to go.

Next time you see one of your school administrators give them a big THANK YOU for the time they devote to your children and the time they spend away from their own families. Please do not get me wrong, I am MADLY in love with my job and have been for 15 years. I appreciate each new day that I get to serve and coach young people, hoping to make a positive impact on their lives.

More importantly I never want to lose sight of the 2 littlest people that I am impacting and my number one job of being a MOMMY! My kids are my life and everything I dreamed of when I envisioned having a family one day. I struggle with doing what is right by them and maintaining a professional career. My poor husband has to be on this roller coaster ride with me when I struggle with being a Mommy and having a career. Thank you Curtis, I love you with my whole heart and appreciate your support when I question whether I am doing what is right.

Our children have made huge adjustments in the past 2 weeks going from our own angel here on earth Mrs. Jenni, to all day preschool. Emma and Gavin are currently attending the Methodist Church Emma has gone to 12 hours a week for the past 2 years. Daddy & I are also making huge sacrifices to get these guys to and from their little school by making the 35 minute commute one way across town daily.
Gavin has been a trooper and wears a smile on his face all day long. He serves on the greeting committee and stands at the door telling everyone, "hello or hi" as they arrive every morning. This little guy might be a politician one day.

Emma, well that is another story. I seriously think she has ripped our hearts out over the past 7 days and left me and her Daddy in tears and sick over the entire ordeal. Yesterday she made it with no tears, but today she was very upset again. I pray with her every morning, we talk to her, we send notes hidden in her lunch kit but nothing seems to help. Curtis and I both agree that the past 7 days have been the most stressful and gut wrenching we have experienced as parents. I want these days to be documented because I know there will be a time we look back and laugh at this season of our life. As for now, we will continue to pray our way through each day and hold our children's hands through the changes.

People ask me all the time, why do you continue to work if it burdens you so much to be away from your sweet babies? Truth is, I love my job and feel as if I am doing what I have truly been called to do. Every single day I get to share my testimony with teenagers, listen to their stories, encourage them to make good choices, teach them healthier ways to live, encourage families to communicate, hug them, empower them to make life long decisions, love them and often times be the only person in their life who they think cares.
Though the days have been long, the nights have come way too quickly and the weekends seem to fly by, I know that we will be just fine. I know that my babies will be okay in due time and we will learn to balance all that we have going on in our hectic little life as THE FRAZIER FOUR!


Darla DiStefano said...

Dear Emma Lou,

Thank you for being such a brave girl and going to your big girl school and for sharing your mommy with all of the kids at the bulldog school! We love you very much!

The DiStefano's <3

Whitney said...

Oh' my! Yes! I wish people could be more thankful and grateful sometimes! I had a parent call and ask for me to fax her a list of her daughter's teacher's e-mail addresses and an hour later she called me back b/c I hadn't faxed them yet. What she didn't know is I'd had 2 students come in with schedule changes, a student in crying, a parent (that actually interviewed for my job as the same time I interviewed) and her son come for me to put in his schedule b/c he wasn't there the first day of school, so he was counted as a no show and his schedule was taken out by our Principal (she was mad and rude to me!!! Probably had more to do with the job thing. I didn't know she had interviewed until my Principal told me later). Then several phone calls... records requests, a parent upset b/c the coach told him he couldn't be in athletics this year! This was all before 9 and within an hour! NEVER a dull moment! :) I know you understand!

Morgan's school situation has been VERY smooth. She loves it! Kennedy has been grouchy after school and still cries a little when we first drive up to school. She always tells me that she missed me and she was sad! Breaks my heart! I ask a TON of questions, but do you REALLY know?

I was literally exhausted last week b/c Jason was not getting home until midnight b/c of two a days so I was doing it alone and on Saturday I felt like I was about to fall over! Jason's home this week and it's so much better!

I just know it's going to get easier for Emma and she is going to love it! I hope and pray that you will all feel peace SOON!!

Lianna Knight said...

Great post Laura! I think this was the first year that I REALLY put my heart and soul into our preplanning activities for our teachers. I was worn out every single day I came home during preplanning AND the first week of school. With so many people out these first few months of school (the other AP is on maternity leave, her secretary had surgery and is out for a few weeks, AND my secretary's position was cut) I really had a lot more responsibilities than ever before. I am proud to say that I made it through the first week of school, but without all the encouragement from our teachers, I don't think I could have done it :)